what i got for xmas…

last week i received a letter from women's weekly i won a prize... RM100 worth of makeup items and another RM100 worth of free makeup... so i went to ESG yesterday to collect the items and to my surprise... i got these...

a 5.3 ml tinted moisturizer spf 20 (which i think 2 kali guna dah habis..) and a 1.2 g of mineral eye powder… giler kecik ok... according to the SA, both priced at RM100. i felt so kena cheated... shah kata this is how they do marketing… cehhh... and then i was asked to set a date for the free makeup before 31 dec 2010. well, i passed coz hati dah panas by just looking at those little items i got... 

ok next…

on the way home from ESG, i asked shah to buy 2 drinks so i can get 2 stamps and left 2 more stamps before i can get the organizer… but thanks to him, i dont know what he did, he managed to get all stamped and he came back with my long waited gorgeous organizer… woot… woot… i guess it's xmas eh...

this one... i’m lovin it… :D

i'm torch-ing…

few months back, i requested from my boss a bb for myself. he said he will need to get approval from our hq office. as months passed, no news about it so i told myself that if there is no news about it in dec, i might just get one myself… maybe it will not be a bb but an ip.

only last month, when i was at home (on EL as aira was having fever), my boss text me… xxx has approved your bb torch… aha.. what a great news!!! thank you very much…

the next day, i went to maxis dealer center at sacc to check on the bb but no stock. they had to order, so i placed a booking fee and in 2 weeks time, they will let me know. after almost 2 weeks with no news, i called and s**t happen la kannn…

1– i called asking for E, the girl who served me when i placed my booking but she was not around. i was asked to call back in 30 mins.

2- 30 mins later, i called again and E was still not around. so i left a message for E to return my call. this time the girl answered my call was soooo mannerless ok.. geram tul…

3- 2 hours later… no return call so i called and finally spoke to E (… and i assumed my message was never passed to E). E told me they still do not have stock and i will need to wait for another 2 weeks… arghhhh…!!! rasa macam nak jerit je.. i told her to cancel and return my booking fee…

i called another dealer in sj and surprisingly… they have stock.. duhhhh… wasted 2 bloody weeks for nothing…

but on good side, i'm now torch-innngggg… :D

my little aira set as my screensaver.. she just turned 1 on Dec 14..

will story about her later… 

the hijrah...

i've been thinking about it a million times.. i guess since last year and just could not find the right time to do it ... 

then... it was on maal hijrah recently, the day... the moment it opens my heart and soul to eventually make it happen... with no pressure...

and... today it is officially and shah was a little surprised to see me this morning... (i did told him but he did not expect it this soon...)

a self-reflection... for a better future and a better year ahead...

when a man loves his women…

is about a man who will not leave the world, till death do us apart… and that was my one and only tok bah and his wives.

tok bah was my maternal grandfather, who had 4 wives, two of them divorced (that include arwah my grandmother), they remarried and had their own families. having 4 grandmothers, it’s no surprise to see how the stems on my family tree continue to grow (referring to my geni.com) and become complex. i have uncles and aunties who are related to me but they are not related to each other, i see all round of close relatives, distance relatives and even relatives who are totally strangers to me.  confusing eh.. well, i’m not going into that. all i know they are related to me.

now.. my grandmothers’ story… my 1st step grandmother passed away long time ago, i cant remember when coz i was not close to her and i didnt attend her funeral (i wonder why.. maybe i was away studying…?? ). followed by my 4th step grandmother in Aug 2009. two months later in Oct 2009, my grandmother (she was his 2nd, ex-wife) passed away and recently in Sept 2010, my 3rd step grandmother.

and now.. as i was told, tok bah started having mild stroke about 10 years ago but became worse 6 years then and bedridden. it was really heart wrenching watching him each time i visited him at his abode. although he cant move and talk, sometimes i see tears falling on his face and i knew he can hear. and despite his condition, he lived long enough, as if to let his wives and ex-wives go before him. 

last tuesday, Nov 30, 2010, tok bah left us at age of 95. as much as i want to remember him, i will not keep the memories of him being sick when he was with us but always be remembered as who he was 30 years ago in his most affectionate manner to his wives, his children and his grandchildren… tok bah, you will be greatly missed… as much as i missed arwah mummy each and every day..

semoga roh arwah tok bah, tok nanny, tok nab, tok aunty, tok saadah dan arwah mummy dicucuri Rahmat and ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman… Al-Fatihah…

my quest ...

is to have a fresh new look for my blog... 

and this is it...

i'm done... 

till i satisfied...

yes... i've been revamping my blog... till i find one that catches my eyes, i'll stay...


for now, the search is still on... :D

poor little girl...

little aira is down with fever since last tuesday... went to office for few minutes that day, grabbed my laptop and went home... peace of mind working at home...

next day, i  brought aira to work. she slept on my office table while i do my work on one side of the table. 

aira is still having fever but unable to take care of her today. lots of work at office. no choice have to leave her at day care centre with a gentle reminder to ida (she's a good childcare) to sponge aira as often as she could to bring down aira's fever... 

hope little aira will be ok by tomorrow...

the day he got his result...

few days before upsr result was announced, i asked adam if he wants me to come along to the school for the result. as always, no specific answer from him coz he asked me if i want to come. i told him it's your decision. finally, he said no... he will call me on his hp once he got it. fine with me...

on the day... it was like a ticking time bomb, as i kept looking at my watch, waiting for his call at my office. at almost 11am on 11-11-10, my hp rang... gosh.. am i ready to hear this...

1st thing i asked.. good news or not adam..? ok la... he said. 4As and 1B.. really??? (apa punya question la mama ni.. hehehe) alhamdulillah... i'm so proud of him for getting almost good result for his upsr. in fact, that was the best result he ever got compared to all his pkrs exam results. he's happy but  his mom was more than happier... :D. million thanks to all his teachers for their endless effort and time...

as promised, adam gets his reward for every As... congratulations adam.. mama loves you...

new oven...

i dreamt of an oven... :D

at last... i bought one yesterday. just a small one so boleh buat testing testing nak bake... nak bake apa ye?? belum pikir lagi.. semalam hanya try panaskan murtabak yg beli kat pasar malam je... apa daa..

ok maybe nak buat pizza.. or lasagna... or kek... or cupcake...

lets google some recipes then... :D

say what...

looking at my last blog, it was dated aug 19 and today is oct 19.. it's exactly 2 months i've been in idle mode/mood... so many things i wanted to blog but i could not find the words or rather i should say no idea what to write... where to start...

hmmm.... let me think and will try to start one soon... i hope... :D

(see... when my mind not working as it should be, the above was posted in my another shared-blog.. luckily i realised it before any of my shared-blog friends notice it.. or did you all.. ??? hahaha)

alahai kebaya...

when i was young, arwah my mum always bring my sister and i to her favourite tailor in klang whenever aidilfitri comes. ever since, i continue my mom’s "legacy" by visiting this tailoress until couple of years back.

most of the years, i tailor-made my baju kurung or kebaya kurung. then i remembered that i have one kebaya nyonya material, which my good friend gave me. it was kept so long i almost forgot all about it. i thought why not bergaya with kebaya nyonya for raya that year. i was so excited the day i went to collect it. i tried it on in the fitting room and it was… hmmmm i dont like it. it doesnt fit nicely on me. it supposed to be a figure-hugging but no.. i look big. even the front, where we wears it with brooches was sewn with buttons… (which i have to hide/fold the buttons inside so i could wear the brooches). i was dissappointed and there was no time to do alteration, i went home unhappy.

i tried it on again for hubby to look at it and he said i dont look so bad. u know men… sometimes their kata perangsang can make us have second thought.. so i decided to just wearing it. well, it was the first and last i wore it. the kebaya is still hanging in my closet. i dont know if i will wear it again or never and dont know how long i’m going to keep it hanging there… or maybe i’ll wait my conscience to wisely says… ina, just get it altered ok… jgn banyak songeh..

just few days before fasting, there was a kenduri sambut ramadan. i stared my closet, looking for something to wear and saw this kebaya. i took it out from the plastic cover, tried it on and guess what.. i still look big.. (ke pasal i still have baby fats from my recent pregnancy.. hehehe). so i decided to wait my conscience is clear before i can bring it for alteration.

last year i bought a jubah (or is it as it looks like it with batik’s pattern) coz i was pregnant. this year, i’m just going to buy a matching color ready-made baju kurung for my lil princess and myself. of course we have to search for hers first before i can buy for myself, that includes the father and the abangs too. susah nak cari si kenit ni punya coz mostly baju kurung for kids ni besar2 la… (ke si kenit ni petite) but there is one i saw at sp. very cute and nice.. i love it but will continue to search more that has matching color for mother and daughter… kang dah beli, ada pulak yg lagi lawa kannn.

my mission now is to find a good tailor shop around shah alam.. anyone knows??

first tooth…

yes, aira starts teething at 7 months… first tooth lower incisor.

having her first tooth, i was her first victim… she bites!!! and when i carry her, my shoulder will be her target to relieve teething pressure. more teeth coming out soon coz nowadays, she likes to chew her fingers. meleleh la lepas ni..

and at this age, aira is able to play with her emotions ala ala berlakon gitu. when we smile, she’ll smile. when we make a serious face, she'll serious too. the best part when we angry (saje2 je buat muka angry), she’ll cry. bila nangis tu, airmata mencurah2 la tapi bila kita smile balik, dengan airmata yg tgh menitis tu, boleh pulak dia smile balik kat kita. such a playful lil' girl...

orang kata kalau gigi cepat tumbuh, lambat berjalan… betul ke?

ramadan tiba lagi… selamat berpuasa!!!

abah’s little girl…

yes… this cheeky little girl will be 7 months tomorrow.

just last couple of months when i visited my dad, aira was having a fever and that was when my dad told me a secret (which i was told happened to me too when i was a baby...) that little girls will always look for their dads during happier times, when they are well and happy… and when they are sick, they will look up and clinging to their moms for comfort and mercy… :D

my experience with aira.. it’s sooooo true. she wants me most of the time for almost everything.. sleeping, feeding, bathing, cuddling etc..

aira, you are so abah’s little girl.. so when you grow up and you want something, go look for your abah ok… :D

abah.. aira nak red car. ala yang ada gambar kuda tu…

haaa abah… apa lagi.. layannnnnn….

bye bye TMJ… hellooo KJ…

TMJ… after 10 years, i bid goodbye to you. let me see if i can relate certain love and hate memories of my life with you.. in no particular orders..

• the annoying sounds from the small factories and car workshops…

• lots of crashed cars parked along the road/lane and even at the parking lot.. apa kes!!! dah remuk pun nak parking gak ke..? parking kat scrap center la…

• every day i see mini coupe.. all series of bmw.. all classes of merc.. porsche families… and always wonder when will i be with you…

• very limited food places and have been eating at same place.. same food… and at some point i was so lazy to walk under the sun, i starve myself - not to death – but to the point of losing weight.. hahaha… giler ke apa..!!

• collected almost 20 summons for not displaying parking tickets… well, that area was called SMEs area.. so mana boleh kena bayar parking…

KJ… you are everything.. from food heaven to the convenience i have always wanted. regardless the kilos i'll be adding.. i'm sooo happy...

m.a.l.a.s…

what has come over me??!!!.. i asked myself when this m.a.l.a.s feeling gushed my soul last monday.

i entered my office, slumped on my chair, switched on the computer and just stared in confusion. as time goes by, i was wondering… is it me or the time is slow… coz i saw the clock ticking sooo damn slow.

at 4.30pm, i smsed hubby.

me.. location?..

hubby.. at atria buying adli’s things for his school project tomorrow.. why?

me.. i nak balik.. bosan gaban dah ni…

hubby.. ok.. i’ll be right there..

at 4.45pm, he called. let’s go home..

i switched off the computer and went to my boss. sir, i’m making an early exit… ok… see you tomorrow..

the m.a.l.a.s-ness continued at home. i have to force myself to prepare dinner for hubby and kids.. after dinner, i just lepak depan tv and let hubby settle the dishes and layan the baby.. boleh..???!!! he is such a wonderful man.. (i usually don't do this…) as he is settled, he said to me.. if you continue like this, you’ll be ‘big’ coz you have ‘big’ genes run in your family you know… i knowww…!!!

dear m.a.l.a.s,

please go away… come back another day… but not in this near future ok.. i need to get rid 5 more kilos… thank you.

regards,

m.a.l.a.s victim

rock kapak…

hi … i’m 4 month old now!!!

before i sleep, i will have my ‘rock kapak’...

i'm settled....

ok mum… you can stop snapping me. i really can’t sleep with all the flashing at my face…

eksyen tau si kecik ni…

what’s new and what’s not…

how time flies… aira is now 17 weeks. she can roll back whenever on her tummy and now she is trying to roll over from back to front. i’m so happy looking at her development but looking at development of myself, haiihhh… i have not been weighing myself for almost 3 months… tak sampai hati nak tengok the scale figures… sedih :(

when i wear my work pants, no breathing space…

when i wear my work blouses and shirts, can’t button them…

when i measure the inches, speechless…

ok.. i really need to get rid of those inches… let’s google and exercise!!!

you smile… i smile…

at two and a half month, aira can recognise us. she greets us with her sweetest smiles. she smiles when she wakes up, she smiles at bathing time, she smiles when we ‘clean’ her, she smiles at her brothers… she just loves to smile…

and she cries too… :D

my little princess…

putri aira is her name. her dad has been calling and talking to her since she was still in my womb, despite not knowing it’s going to be a girl or a boy. alhamdulillah… the name fits..

my 1st week of confinement memang mencabar tahap kesabaran.. i was not able to breastfeed coz no production of milk.. aira was crying out loud especially in the evening and what most depressing was watching her having her first cold and fever. dah la having a hard time breathing, during feeding pun susah nak breathe. just imagine at the age of 8 days, she was on prescription. lagi menyedihkan bila my MIL suruh letak kunyit kat her nose so that the cold cepat hilang.. dah kuning hidung anak i…

few days after discharged from the medical centre, the home care nurses came to check on the baby and myself. they recommended this one good makcik for berurut. just imagine dah lama tak berurut, menjerit2 la i especially bila dia urut nak bagi keluar susu.. aduhaiii but of course not that loud la coz my mentua ada kat rumah. malu je.. after my ‘3-day berurut’, i felt so much better and i was able to breastfeed full time. it was and is a joy of every moment until a month and half, i had to express milk and begin to feed her through bottle coz my maternity leave had come to the end. very sedih ye… another saddest moment when she totally refused the bottle feeding. she kept on crying and took her a week to accept the ‘differentness’. i was so worried.. how am i going to deal with this when i return to work.. so we end up buying several types of teats available from small to big, from cheap to expensive.. now we have almost 10 kinds of teats ye. at last, the only teat she loves was the one her dad bought. memang anak manja tul lah. since then, whenever her bottle feeding time, her dad will take over. i’m so happy… she sleeps easily in her dad’s arms coz he lullaby very melodius.. dengan mak nyer sekali yang tidur… and am one lucky mum too coz aira even sleep through the night, 10pm to 6am…

good girl….